i miss you

Why I have this kind of feeling On you, I am terribly longing Only a day you are away I found it almost a year I am always absent-minded I cannot focus indeed I am searching of your presence Every moment I feel your absence I want you every moment of my life To fill my soul and heart at all time To complete my being and existence A reality…the truth which is intense Why I am missing you tenderly Because you are dear to me totally You are my friend I trusted wholeheartedly I entrust my vulnerability and dependency

SEARCH ME

SEARCH ME… …not from your ideals where I would never be …not on how you possess things ‘cause you could not own me …not from the way you want me to be ‘cause you could not hold me …but for being who I am, you would find me naked in your arms, it’s true SEARCH ME… …from the well of my being …from the depth of my soul where the sweetness embraces of love I am longing …from the curves and lines of my body which carry the sacredness of my feeling …from the joy that this world could not offer but my heart cuddles with everlasting SEARCH ME… …to the ocean of my thoughts not from the highest ideas your mind could soar …to the simplicity of my smile not from the dictates of your uproar …to the nothingness of my bare hands not from what I could give …to the tenderness of my heart and not from the achievements I have And SEARCH ME to the emptiness of my spirit …in the stillness of my soul and the silence of my credit …in the niche of my lonesomeness …where I would rest in the serenity of your love in oneness

AKO AY AKO

Di ko mawari bakit ba ganito? Mga tao sa paligid ko’y nakakalito Ako nga kaya’y sadyang kakaiba At lahat na lang sila’y nagwawala Ewan ko, ako’y nalilito Maarte nga ba ako? O di lang nila tanggap, ako’y ganito Sa kilos at ugali’y kakaiba ako Ako’y madalas kutyain at hamakin Sa kilos at gawi ay dapat maliitin Gayong di naman ako kinakausap Upang alamin ang aking pangungusap Ako’y hinihusgahan sa salang di ko batid Sa likod ko’y mga mapanirang hatid Niyuyurak aking pagkatao Dahil sa mga sapantahang hindi totoo Pero isa lang ang alam ko Ako ay tao at may pusong di bato Nasasaktan ako sa mga pang-uuyam Sa mapanglait na salitang binibitiwan Basta’t alam ko lang ang aking nadarama Nagmamahal ako’t umuunawa Kahit na nga minsan ako’y inis na Patuloy pa rin akong iintindi sa kanila Masakit minsan ang magtiwala Sa mga taong akala ko’y kaibigan na Yun pala’y sila pang iiwas at lalait Sa pagkatao kong biyaya ng langit Minsan mas masakit tanggapin Sa bibig ng inakalang kaibigan Ang siyang iiwas at hindi makaunawa Di matanggap kahinaan ko sa t’wina Ako ito’t pinipilit magpakatao Sa lahat ng pagkakatao’y nais maging totoo Sa pananalita’t paglalambing ay akong ako Walang inililihim sa buong pagkatao Ako ay may puso, may damdamin din Ang sakit ko’y itinatago na lang din Sa dibdib ko’y balaraw ang nakatanim Sa mga mata ko’y luha ng panimdim Ako ay ako at tapat sa sarili ko Hindi nagkukunwari tulad ng iba Ang lahat ng nakikita’y ako Sa kilos at gawi’y walang itinatago Mahirap pala ang magpakatotoo Lalo na’t marami ang matatalino Lagi na lang may katwiran, isipan ang nagturo Gayong tugon ng puso ang hinahanap ko Maaaring di nagtatagpo Dahil hangad ko’y isinisigaw ng puso Sa pusong katotohanan ng pagkatao At hindi ang laman ng isipang nakapanloloko AKO ay AKO dahil ako ito Hindi hinulma ng lipunang ginagalawan ko Kundi dahil sa nadarama ko, sa damdamin ko Sa pinipintig ng puso kong NAGMAMAHAL AKO

I LONG FOR YOU, MY FRIEND

I LONG FOR YOU, MY FRIEND Mizpah102912 We are friends, promised to be together And I hold on to that whatever matter Because I believe in your words That we’ll help one another till end But, suddenly, you become cold You left me all alone, surprised I am lost, longing and confused of you don’t know what to do without you I have to admit, part of me is lost When you left me up to the utmost My life has nowhere to go. I am lost, I am totally lost I long for you, my friend I long for the time we are together I miss the moment we laugh together The stories, the memories, I miss them all

KUNG IBIG MO AKONG KILALANIN

Kung ibig mo akong kilalanin Huwag mo akong arukin sa dikta ng iyong isipan Huwag mo akong hanapin sa kalaliman ng iyong kaalaman Sapagkat doo’y hindi mo ako masisilayan Kung ibig mo akong kilalanin Huwag mo akong hubugin sa anyo ng iyong hulmahan Huwag mo akong ituring na canvass ng iyong imahinasyon Sapagkat kulang ang mga kulay upang ako’y mailarawan Kung ibig mo akong kilalanin Huwag mo akong turuan sa nasa mong galaw ko Huwag mong idikta ang hangad mong kaligayahan ko Sapagkat hindi mo ako masusumpungan sa lihim kong dako Kung ibig mo akong kilalanin Hangarin mo ako bilang ako na walang pagkukunwari Hindi sa gusto mo o nasa mo sa akin Ngunit dahil mahal mo ako bilang ako Kung ibig mo akong kilalanin Sunduin mo ako sa himlayan kong karimlan Sa sulok na di mababatid ninoman kundi ng puso mong laan Sa silay ng umagang mapanglawa at walang pagkukublihan Kung ibig mo akong kilalanin Bilang iyong dambana, ako ay akuin Ang karikta’y masisilayan sa hubad kong kalagayan At mula ulo hanggang paa sa iyo’y magpapaubaya

I AM SORRY BECAUSE I LOVE YOU

I never ask you to come with me But I am always begging down on my knees I never ask you to change But I am determined most of the time I do not care how much you move away I just want to be by your side and stay I do not care what people say I am serious and do not just play I know how you hide your pains I know all your anguish, your anxieties And I feel all of them…all of them All of them I store in my heart…within I always carry your lonesomeness I cry whenever you feel lonesomeness Every sobbing you had, I know And the beating of your lonely heart,I also know I always run after you…in every place you go Even to the farthest place you want to go With you knowledge, I always follow you Because I want to be there with you Even you want me get rid out Forever in your life, I will not give up I will stay and search your heart For I know, I will still win at the end I am sorry if I am persistent I am sorry if that’s what I intent I just want to be with you Because I love you…I love you I am sorry because I love you I am sorry because I am truly in love with you I can not control my heart to beat only for you And I am willing to offer even my life for you I am sorry if I allow myself be mocked I allow myself be ruined Be trampled like a rose on the ground Be scolded, beaten on the pillar because I love you I am sorry, I allow myself be stripped I allow myself to carry a heavy plank And fall on the ground for many times I face them all because of you I am sorry, I allow myself be nailed My delicate body be speared I allow myself in pain and sorrow be subjected Because…because I love you… I am sorry, I allow myself to lose it So that you will regain your life again I am sorry because that’s all I can do I can only love you…I can only love you.

PRAYER OF THE HUMAN BODY

Father, who are the source of my meaning and purpose and who created my body and entirety to be Your dwelling place and become Your manifestations, hear the prayer of my soul: Lord, let me be your eyes that appreciate and gladdens to see the beauty and goodness of every person and not one’s ugliness and unworthiness; , let me be your nose that smells the fragrance of innocence and not the stinginess of one’s frailty and weaknesses , let me be your lips that share a smile that encourages and not be a deceiving smile that belittles , let me be your tongue that utters justice and joy for those maltreated and abused and not be a source of gossiping and lying; , let me be your ears that hear the cries of the lonely and sorrowful and not be deaf to the pleas and supplications of those in need; , let me be your fingers that reach out to those in troubles and not be an accuser to point out my sins to others; , let me be your hands that heal brokenness and not be an oppressor; , let me be your arms that embrace to comfort and not be a way to condemnation and imprisonment of blameless heart; , let me be your shoulders that carry the burdens of others and not be a heavy cross for others’; , let me be your feet to guide those astray and leading to wrong paths and not be a way of division and separation; , let me be your skin that feels someone’s needs of warm and not move away wanting not to be touched; , let me be your breath that gives life and freedom and not be a curse and bad spirit for others; , let me be your mind full of wisdom to give justice and not be a thinker to destroy and ruin other’s life; , let me be your heart full of love, mercy, tenderness, humility, peace and compassion and not be a dumb, wicked, arrogant, boastful, and numb to real essence of being. Lord, bring me to your wholeness and holiness, perfection and sacredness, and keep me into your image. Amen.